KK Countdown: 35 days – 5 WEEKS!
Five weeks left friends…FIVE WEEKS! I’ve made progress in releasing more possessions. I’m keeping up with my homework assignments. Everything appears to be moving along smoothly. But, I’m just not feeling all that focused and serene all of a sudden. Let me tell you what’s been happening within my own mind.
Yesterday was a tough day for me. I know that I’ve been telling you in this blog that all is well, and I believe that. Yet, I found myself snapping at people yesterday. Not only that, but then I went home and felt bad about it for hours. It’s as if my human self is frightened and lashing out at others with annoyance and some sarcasm too. I don’t like it. It feels uncomfortable and I want to change that…quickly, I might add.
Here’s the good news. This is a reminder for me that I may be a spiritual being but I am certainly having a human experience. Part of that human experience is to see my personality show up in a less than attractive way. My approach to this? Pray and meditate more, give thanks for being aware of what is happening, and make amends whenever possible. Oh, and lovingly accept myself just as I am.
I know I’m doing the best that I can do each day. I know that I have love for the people I’m lashing out at periodically. So, now it’s time for me to be present in each moment, pause before responding (or reacting), and act from that place of Love within me rather than from my ego. All is well…this is true. I just need to be gentle with myself and with others as we spend these final five weeks together.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for reading this and holding me in your hearts. I can feel it every day. Namaste.
Categories: Personal Experiences